This blog entry started out as just a quick blurb to go along with an article I was forwarding on Facebook, and quickly morphed into a larger analysis of how this year has gone for me, with regards to my 2013 resolution to lose weight and get healthier.
Here's the full text: Forget Setting Goals. Focus on This Instead.
The whole article is awesome, and an excerpt that really spoke to me is this:
1. Goals reduce your current happiness.
When you’re working toward a goal, you are essentially saying, “I’m not good enough yet, but I will be when I reach my goal.”
The problem with this mindset is that you’re teaching yourself to always put happiness and success off until the next milestone is achieved. “Once I reach my goal, then I’ll be happy. Once I achieve my goal, then I’ll be successful.”
SOLUTION: Commit to a process, not a goal.
Choosing a goal puts a huge burden on your shoulders. Can you imagine if I had made it my goal to write two books this year? Just writing that sentence stresses me out.
But we do this to ourselves all the time. We place unnecessary stress on ourselves to lose weight or to succeed in business or to write a best-selling novel. Instead, you can keep things simple and reduce stress by focusing on the daily process and sticking to your schedule, rather than worrying about the big, life-changing goals.
When you focus on the practice instead of the performance, you can enjoy the present moment and improve at the same time.
2. Goals are strangely at odds with long-term progress.
You might think your goal will keep you motivated over the long-term, but that’s not always true.
Consider someone training for a half-marathon. Many people will work hard for months, but as soon as they finish the race, they stop training. Their goal was to finish the half-marathon and now that they have completed it, that goal is no longer there to motivate them. When all of your hard work is focused on a particular goal, what is left to push you forward after you achieve it?
This can create a type of “yo-yo effect” where people go back and forth from working on a goal to not working on one. This type of cycle makes it difficult to build upon your progress for the long-term.
Wow. Yeah... been there, learned that the hard way, and I'm doing my best to keep reminding myself that it's not about the destination, it's about the journey, as clichéd as that is. I have a pretty hard head, so I have to keep hammering the idea in.
My journey this year has had it's ups and downs. I've had setbacks with back injuries, weight gain from steroids used to treat said injuries, knee injuries, and my weight doing the yo-yo up and down with various vacations and times I lost my focus. I've made a lot of progress this year, but it's been anything but smooth sailing. Initially, I was only keeping track of my progress by weights and tape measurements. I'd get too hung up on those numbers, and when the pounds and inches weren't coming off as fast as I thought they should be, I'd get incredibly frustrated and discouraged, and I'd lose my motivation.
I lost a nice bit of weight pretty quickly in the first five months or so of 2013, but then the pounds started coming off REALLY slowly, and my scale progress slowed to a snail's pace. I was counting calories, eating healthy more often than not, and working out, but that promised 2 lb loss per week just wasn't happening, and it was really messing with my mojo. I slipped back a bit, but eventually managed to get myself back on track.
A few months ago, I got the okay from my doc to start the "Couch to 5k" running program. It's supposed to be an 8 week program to take a beginning runner from novice to 5k (or 30 minutes.) I started in late September, and I've had some stops and starts, and two weeks long stints away from home, but I've kept coming back to it, and I'm making good progress. I've gone from not being able to run more than 30 seconds (back in April, when I first started working out again) to running 25 minutes (2 miles!) at a stretch. Whew! I never, EVER thought I'd be able to do that, and the prospect of trying, frankly, terrified me. I'm slow, and still quite a ways off from completing a 5k run, but I'm still doing it, and still making progress.
I've gotta tell you, I absolutely *hate* running while I'm doing it. It's slow torture. By the end of it, my legs burn, my back hurts, and I feel like I must be absolutely daft to be putting myself through the misery of it all, but I love how much better my body feels the rest of the time I'm not on the damn treadmill, and it's making some nice changes in my muscle definition.
Now, back to why that article spoke to me. In the past few months, mainly since I started running, I feel like I've been able to shift my focus away from only losing weight, to measuring my progress in multiple areas, and actually feeling good about it, instead of feeling like those measures of progress were just a consolation prize. I made the purchase of a really good scale an ARIA WI-FI SMART SCALE from Fitbit that measures weight, body fat percentage, and provides the weights for both your lean body mass, and your fat. I LOVE that thing! It automatically syncs my weight and body fat stats with my Fitbit Flex activity tracker, both of which are integrated in the food and activity tracking iPhone app I use from My Fitness Pal. Yeah, I'm a techie kid, and I love tracking my metrics every which way.
I took a break from the gym and my diet plan for the past three weeks over the holidays, and naturally, I gained four pounds back. Now, with the return of those four pounds, my weight is more or less the same it was 4 months ago, but I can still see that I've lost fat and gained muscle, and I've earned some nice definition in my legs that I didn't have before. My back is bothering me less, and it's been more than 4 months since the last time I threw my back out. *Knocks on wood.* I know I'm healthier, more active, and more fit than I was 4 months ago, even though my weight is the same. If I was only keeping track of my progress by the number on the scale, I'd feel like I was at a standstill and a failure, not accomplishing anything, when I've actually made some pretty damn good progress.
I'd by lying if I said I didn't care about the number on the scale, but going into 2014, I'm choosing to focus on the process, and trusting that the rest of the details will fall into place in time. For the first time, I have confidence that I can actually make that happen. I've had a nice 3 week break from my routine, my batteries are recharged, and I'm looking forward to getting back on track full throttle come January 1st. I'm giving myself the next few days to get my groceries in place, and refocus on my healthy eating plan, which for me, means morning protein shakes, tracking my food, counting calories/carbs/fat/protein, eating smaller portions, avoiding sugar, fried food, junk food, simple carbs, and alcohol, and focusing on eating complex carbs, whole grains, lean protein, veggies, and healthy fats. It's what's gotten me this far, and I'm sticking to it. I'm a fan of the South Beach Diet in general for this, and the very restrictive first two weeks of the plan really help me kick the sugar and crap food cravings I always pick up over the holiday season. I'm putting my energy into increasing my endurance while running, and going for distance, rather than speed. I will continue to run 3 days a week, and do non weight bearing cardio the other days to give my feet a rest. I plan to continue to consistently work out 4-5 days a week.
I may or may not ever reach that ever elusive GOAL, whether it's being under 170 lbs, under 30% body fat, or running a 5k, 10k, half marathon or whatever else, but I can, I have, and I will continue to make PROGRESS. I'd hoped to be farther along in my weight loss by now than I am, but my current 239 lbs is a helluva lot healthier than when I started this trip at 284 back in February. I know if I stick to it, in another year, when 2015 comes around, I will be in an even healthier place than I am now.
So, here's to the journey of 2014!
Saturday, December 28, 2013
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
Lucky
So, this past Saturday I went to my monthly Nutrition Support meeting. As we were going around the room doing the standard intros of when we had our surgery, how much we've lost, etc... something another woman there said really rubbed me the wrong way. I've lost more weight than she has in less time, and she said "You're so lucky!" I told her right then and there that luck had absolutely nothing to do with it. I've busted my butt and fought for every pound I've lost in the past six months, and I'm still a long way from my goal. I track every calorie that goes in my mouth, and I work hard at being active. I'm sure she didn't mean anything by it, but I feel like attributing any of my success to luck sells all of my hard work short. The success I've had is the result of a lot of discipline and will power. The fact is, if I want to, I can eat just about anything I want, especially if I take my time, whether it's steak, bread, Cheetos, or ice cream. Some days, all I want to do is lay on the couch eating a mountain of chocolate. Most of the time, I can resist those temptations, but sometimes I give in and I deal with the setbacks they cause. The issues I have with food didn't magically go away just because I got some restriction in my band. The band helps me eat less, but most of the time, I can still overeat if I choose to. I still have to push myself to get off my ass and go to the gym (which is something I'm working hard at doing more consistently.) I'm building up to four days a week, and my stamina and strength are seeing real improvements. I've lost a total of 41 pounds, and I'm down to 243, which is the lowest I've been in four years. The 230s are on the horizon and I want in! So it's more of tracking on My Fitness Pal, pushing myself harder and harder on the recumbent bike, and climbing uphill on the treadmill. The only way to get there is dedication and hard work. I still doubt myself, and I still wonder if I can really pull this off, but I'm committed to proving to myself that I can do it, one day at a time.
Current weight: 243 lbs, BMI 35.9
Starting weight: 284 lbs, BMI 41.9
Monday, May 27, 2013
How Lap Band works
In case you're not familiar with it, here's a short video about how the band works:
Back on the Band Wagon with LapBand
Hey folks, it's been a good while since I've posted here, and some things have changed with my situation. In the year or so since I was last active on my blog, I allowed my weight to creep back up to about 273 by the beginning of the year. This was due in part to slipping back into bad eating habits, but also because I stopped working out after all of the foot problems I had from overtraining. My feet have gotten better than they were, but the problems are still there. I deal with it as best I can, but it's a constant annoyance. Back in February of this year, I had a very painful incident where I pulled a muscle in my back in such an ugly way that I was laid out for a week. I've never experienced pain like that in my life! My doctor put me on a steroid to help me heal, and in a week, I'd gained ten pounds and landed on the scale at 284lbs.
OH.HELL.NO!!!
I called Surgical Weight Control Center up that very day and made an appointment to get a lapband adjustment. I'd been without restriction for more than a year and a half at that point. By the time I got my fill, I'd lost most of the weight I gained from the steroids, and started back on the LapBand Wagon at 275. It's been a learning experience, and I've had to spend some time re-acquainting myself with how to eat as a bandster. I've been working hard at learning how to do things right this time around. In the time I'd been gone, SWCC had stepped their support game and are now offerring weekend support seminars in addition to their weekday evening meetings (which I can't attend due to my schedule.)
I went to a bariatric nutrition 101 seminar in March to get the ball rolling, and I feel like I'm doing things better this time around with a solid nutritional base. I've also attended two of the monthly Nutrition Support meetings, which I enjoy, and I feel like it helps me to stay on track. I'm focusing on lots of protein, 90+ grams a day, veggies, complex carbs, and staying away from junk food. I've been using the MyFitnessPal iPhone app to track my food and excercise, and I've been working on getting active again. I've been doing a recumbant bike for my cardio because my feet are still jacked, and my podiatrist told me to stay away from weight bearing excercise. A little over a week ago, I had a trainer at the gym set me up with a weight routine, and I've been trying to get on program with that. My back and knees have been twingy, so I'm taking things slow and not pushing too hard.
I had a number of band adjustments between February and April, until I got to what feels like a good level of restriction. My last adjustment was on April 8th. Hopefully I won't need to get another one for a few months until I lose substantially more weight. I've had some bumps in the road along the way, but I've been doing pretty well for the most part. I've lost about thirty pounds since I started, and currently weigh less than I have in about three years. A stretchy pair of size 22 jeans that I could barely fasten three months ago are starting to get baggy. In another ten pounds or so, they'll probably be too big to wear. I have a huge pile of clothes, including jeans and capris going down to about a size 18. I don't expect I'll have to buy any pants until the fall, though I'm in desperate need of some new bras now.
My weight loss is slower than I've liked, and I've plateaud here and there, but at least I'm losing. I'd really like to be losing a steady 2 lbs a week, but it's been half that. Still, if I can keep this pace up I'd be in the 220's by my birthday in late October. I've been changing up my routine, after a friend pointed out that I'm probably not eating enough calories. I've bumped them up to about 1400 net calories a day including exercise. Previously, I'd been doing anywhere from 750-1300 net, depending on the day, and not eating back what I'd burned through excercise. We'll see how it goes.
Anyhow, I'll try to keep the updates coming. I'm planning on keeping my posts less formal than before. As fun as those multimedia posts are, they take a lot of time to write, and it's just not as much fun for me if I feel like I'm under the gun.
TTFN,
Stephanie
Current weight: 253 lbs, BMI 37.3
OH.HELL.NO!!!
I called Surgical Weight Control Center up that very day and made an appointment to get a lapband adjustment. I'd been without restriction for more than a year and a half at that point. By the time I got my fill, I'd lost most of the weight I gained from the steroids, and started back on the LapBand Wagon at 275. It's been a learning experience, and I've had to spend some time re-acquainting myself with how to eat as a bandster. I've been working hard at learning how to do things right this time around. In the time I'd been gone, SWCC had stepped their support game and are now offerring weekend support seminars in addition to their weekday evening meetings (which I can't attend due to my schedule.)
I went to a bariatric nutrition 101 seminar in March to get the ball rolling, and I feel like I'm doing things better this time around with a solid nutritional base. I've also attended two of the monthly Nutrition Support meetings, which I enjoy, and I feel like it helps me to stay on track. I'm focusing on lots of protein, 90+ grams a day, veggies, complex carbs, and staying away from junk food. I've been using the MyFitnessPal iPhone app to track my food and excercise, and I've been working on getting active again. I've been doing a recumbant bike for my cardio because my feet are still jacked, and my podiatrist told me to stay away from weight bearing excercise. A little over a week ago, I had a trainer at the gym set me up with a weight routine, and I've been trying to get on program with that. My back and knees have been twingy, so I'm taking things slow and not pushing too hard.
I had a number of band adjustments between February and April, until I got to what feels like a good level of restriction. My last adjustment was on April 8th. Hopefully I won't need to get another one for a few months until I lose substantially more weight. I've had some bumps in the road along the way, but I've been doing pretty well for the most part. I've lost about thirty pounds since I started, and currently weigh less than I have in about three years. A stretchy pair of size 22 jeans that I could barely fasten three months ago are starting to get baggy. In another ten pounds or so, they'll probably be too big to wear. I have a huge pile of clothes, including jeans and capris going down to about a size 18. I don't expect I'll have to buy any pants until the fall, though I'm in desperate need of some new bras now.
My weight loss is slower than I've liked, and I've plateaud here and there, but at least I'm losing. I'd really like to be losing a steady 2 lbs a week, but it's been half that. Still, if I can keep this pace up I'd be in the 220's by my birthday in late October. I've been changing up my routine, after a friend pointed out that I'm probably not eating enough calories. I've bumped them up to about 1400 net calories a day including exercise. Previously, I'd been doing anywhere from 750-1300 net, depending on the day, and not eating back what I'd burned through excercise. We'll see how it goes.
Anyhow, I'll try to keep the updates coming. I'm planning on keeping my posts less formal than before. As fun as those multimedia posts are, they take a lot of time to write, and it's just not as much fun for me if I feel like I'm under the gun.
TTFN,
Stephanie
Current weight: 253 lbs, BMI 37.3
Starting
weight: 284 lbs, BMI
41.9
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Week 14 Review: Limping along, but still losing!
So this week, I have good news and bad news. The good news is that I lost another 1.5 lbs this week! (Cue crowd cheering and fanfare.) The bad news is that my feet are not happy and I'm limping even worse than I was a couple of weeks ago.
I went to the podiatrist for a follow up on Monday, and they made me another pair of temporary supports, only this time, instead of making a removable half sandal that I could slip on and off, the doc's assistant attached the neuroma padding and arch supports directly into the insole on my sneakers. Seems like a good idea, right? Unfortunately, the arch supports are a little too high, and it was making my foot roll to the outside when I walked, which has caused me additional soreness and really pissed off my left ankle (where I have a sprain/strain in addition to neuromas and plantar fasciitis, tendonitis, and metatarsalgia which is in both feet. Apparently, I also have bone spurs in both heels according to the doc's dictation notes from my last visit.) I spent about three or four hours on my feet while window shopping Saturday, and I'm really paying for it today. (Whaaa whaaa... whine...okay, I'll stop. But it really sucks and I'm tired of being in pain with every step I take.)
What it comes down to, is that I need really good orthotic inserts to wear while things are healing up and recovering. I have really high arches, and none of the pre-fabricated inserts have a high enough arch to be beneficial to me, so they're going to cast my feet in plaster and create custom orthotics just as soon as I get the go-ahead from my insurance. Have I mentioned that this has been an expensive process? *sigh* I just hope they can fix me up. As long as the treatments work, it will have been worth it.
In happier news, I was able to get to the gym twice this week, and I'm having pretty good results on the bike. I also have a new addiction: Pinterest. Have you been on pinterest yet? It's sort of a virtual memo board where you can create collections virtual memo boards of pictures, links, blogs, as well as browse through other people's topic boards, and add the ones that strike your fancy to your own collection. It's been both a boone and a curse for me, because I have found so many amazing recipes, nerdy humor things, art, decorating and gardening ideas... the list goes on and on. The downside is, it's super easy to waste vast amounts of time perusing the goodies. The good part is that they have an iphone app, and I've been spending my gym time on the bike finding some really great recipes and "fitspiration" photos, which I've been adding to my personal motivation board.
You can see what I have so far here, if you like: http://pinterest.com/thecurvymermaid/fitspiration/
Overall, I've found some great stuff, and I figure every little bit of motivation and support that helps me stay on track is a good thing.
As for fun stuff this week, on Friday night, I went to see Titanic in 3D with good friends, and for three hours, I was 17 again. Saturday, I ventured out to Town Square to meet a friend for traditional tea at English's "Quintessentially British" gastropub. It was a fun experience! We were seated on the patio on the second floor of the building with a view of a sort of village green where there was an Easter egg hunt going on. It was a fun to watch the kids go wild while we enjoyed a variety of scones, finger sandwiches, and sweets. With the exception of the little strawberry, chocolate, and tiramisu bites on the top tier of the tray which were AMAZING, the food didn't blow my mind, but it was tasty, resonably priced, and the day was beautiful. I'll likely be back, if I can get down there again before the summer heat really kicks in.
Later that afternoon we ventured downstairs to Double Helix for more outdoor patio fun. My friend had some lovely wines (I was being good and stuck to water) and eventually, we ordered a charcuterie platter with a couple of different kinds of sausage, duck, gruyere, brie, truffled goat cheese, fresh fruit and quince preserves. After all the carbs at tea, we skipped the bread. Beyond that, all I can say is YUM! I'll definitely be back to try them again sometime!
I did pretty well at staying on track with points, tracking, and excercise, and I've lost another 1.5 lbs to prove it. (Yay!) I was able to budget for the weekend's indulgences (Everything from movie popcorn to the tea, and all the rest) by saving up all of my weekly points and the activity points I earned at the gym for the weekend. I'll be sticking to my points this week, and taking the foot stuff day by day. I'm hoping that I'll feel up to riding the bike in another day or two, but I'll have to see how things go.. I suspect that returning to an excercise routine is what's gotten my weight loss in gear again, and I don't want to mess up my mojo in that department.
I'm SO CLOSE to my 20lb mark that I can taste it, and I'm really ready to be out of the 260's. Only a little farther to go! There are eight months to go in 2012, and I have just over 40 lbs to lose in order to meet my goal for the year. I'm hoping to catch up to my 2012 1 lb a week minimum goal within the next few weeks.
Weeks down: 14
Weeks to go: 38
Starting weight: 271.5 lbs
Current weight: 262 lbs
This week's loss 1.5 lbs
2012 weight loss: 9.5 lb
Current BMI 38.7
Started WW on 11/28, @ 281.5 lbs
I went to the podiatrist for a follow up on Monday, and they made me another pair of temporary supports, only this time, instead of making a removable half sandal that I could slip on and off, the doc's assistant attached the neuroma padding and arch supports directly into the insole on my sneakers. Seems like a good idea, right? Unfortunately, the arch supports are a little too high, and it was making my foot roll to the outside when I walked, which has caused me additional soreness and really pissed off my left ankle (where I have a sprain/strain in addition to neuromas and plantar fasciitis, tendonitis, and metatarsalgia which is in both feet. Apparently, I also have bone spurs in both heels according to the doc's dictation notes from my last visit.) I spent about three or four hours on my feet while window shopping Saturday, and I'm really paying for it today. (Whaaa whaaa... whine...okay, I'll stop. But it really sucks and I'm tired of being in pain with every step I take.)
What it comes down to, is that I need really good orthotic inserts to wear while things are healing up and recovering. I have really high arches, and none of the pre-fabricated inserts have a high enough arch to be beneficial to me, so they're going to cast my feet in plaster and create custom orthotics just as soon as I get the go-ahead from my insurance. Have I mentioned that this has been an expensive process? *sigh* I just hope they can fix me up. As long as the treatments work, it will have been worth it.
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| I really like this one, and it's "Make Every Day Count" Can-Do attitude. |
You can see what I have so far here, if you like: http://pinterest.com/thecurvymermaid/fitspiration/
Overall, I've found some great stuff, and I figure every little bit of motivation and support that helps me stay on track is a good thing.
As for fun stuff this week, on Friday night, I went to see Titanic in 3D with good friends, and for three hours, I was 17 again. Saturday, I ventured out to Town Square to meet a friend for traditional tea at English's "Quintessentially British" gastropub. It was a fun experience! We were seated on the patio on the second floor of the building with a view of a sort of village green where there was an Easter egg hunt going on. It was a fun to watch the kids go wild while we enjoyed a variety of scones, finger sandwiches, and sweets. With the exception of the little strawberry, chocolate, and tiramisu bites on the top tier of the tray which were AMAZING, the food didn't blow my mind, but it was tasty, resonably priced, and the day was beautiful. I'll likely be back, if I can get down there again before the summer heat really kicks in.
Later that afternoon we ventured downstairs to Double Helix for more outdoor patio fun. My friend had some lovely wines (I was being good and stuck to water) and eventually, we ordered a charcuterie platter with a couple of different kinds of sausage, duck, gruyere, brie, truffled goat cheese, fresh fruit and quince preserves. After all the carbs at tea, we skipped the bread. Beyond that, all I can say is YUM! I'll definitely be back to try them again sometime! I did pretty well at staying on track with points, tracking, and excercise, and I've lost another 1.5 lbs to prove it. (Yay!) I was able to budget for the weekend's indulgences (Everything from movie popcorn to the tea, and all the rest) by saving up all of my weekly points and the activity points I earned at the gym for the weekend. I'll be sticking to my points this week, and taking the foot stuff day by day. I'm hoping that I'll feel up to riding the bike in another day or two, but I'll have to see how things go.. I suspect that returning to an excercise routine is what's gotten my weight loss in gear again, and I don't want to mess up my mojo in that department.
I'm SO CLOSE to my 20lb mark that I can taste it, and I'm really ready to be out of the 260's. Only a little farther to go! There are eight months to go in 2012, and I have just over 40 lbs to lose in order to meet my goal for the year. I'm hoping to catch up to my 2012 1 lb a week minimum goal within the next few weeks.
Weeks down: 14
Weeks to go: 38
Starting weight: 271.5 lbs
Current weight: 262 lbs
This week's loss 1.5 lbs
2012 weight loss: 9.5 lb
2012 goal: 219.5 lbs
Starting BMI 40.00
Started WW on 11/28, @ 281.5 lbs
Total loss: 19.5 lbs
Monday, April 2, 2012
A quick bit of pasta and veggie goodness
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| photo borrowed from: http://www.tastespotting.com |
2 oz Whole Wheat pasta (5 points)
1/2 cup serving marinara (2 points)
4 meatballs (Target Market pantry brand), Sliced, 5 points
2 handfulls of baby orange and yellow bell peppers, sliced
1 cup fresh spinach
1 Tbsp basalmic vinegar
garlic powder
1 small handful fresh basil, finely chopped
A couple of squirts of sriracha
1 TBSP parmesean (1 point)
Lightly Sautee bell peppers and spinach in a small pan while pasta cooks. Add sauce, garlic, sritacha, and meatballs. Toss with pasta and fresh basil. Top with a little parmesean.
12 points of pure crunchy, basily, spicy, meaty, carby yumminess, and hearty enough to see you through the rest of your work day!
Let me know what you think, and enjoy!
Food for Thought: Study links Junk food with Depression
Reposting from Huffington Post.
This is nuts! I'm so glad that I've cut most of this crap out of my diet. I didn't actually take blood tests before I turned over my new leaf back in November, but I'm positive that my cholesterol and blood pressure numbers are way better than they were. I was eating a ton of butter and salt, and comparatively use very little now.
Check out the video at the Huff Post link below too!
A new study shows that junk food may have effects beyond expanding your waistline and upping your sodium levels -- it might also be sabotaging your mental health.
A new study in the journal Public Health Nutrition shows that regularly eating commercial baked goods -- including doughnuts and croissants -- as well as fast food -- pizza, hamburgers and hot dogs -- is linked with an increased depression risk.
Researchers from the University of Las Palmas de Gran Canaria and the University of Granada found that the people who regularly eat these foods are also more likely to be more sedentary, smoke, eat other not-so-nutritious foods and work 45 or more hours a week.
"Although more studies are necessary, the intake of this type of food should be controlled because of its implications on both health (obesity, cardiovascular diseases) and mental well-being," study researcher Almudena Sánchez-Villegas said in a statement.
The study included 8,964 people who didn't have depression (and weren't taking any antidepressant drugs) at the start of the study. Their depression statuses and diets were tracked for an average of six months.
At the end of the study period, 493 people were depressed or were taking antidepressants. The researchers found that the ones who ate the most junk food were 51 percent more likely to develop depression, compared with people who ate the least of these foods.
The Mayo Clinic reported on a previous study also showing a similar link. That study showed that people whose diets are high in fried foods, processed meats, desserts and high-fat dairy had an increased risk of depression symptoms, compared with people who eat lots of fruits, veggies and fish.
And earlier this year, a study in the journal PLoS ONE showed that there may be a link between eating trans fats -- common in a lot of junk foods -- and being irritable and aggressive.
The researchers of that study, from the University of California, San Diego, found that greater trans fats intake seemed to predict whether a person was more aggressive. The finding held true even after taking into account factors like sex, age and ethnicity.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/03/31/junk-food-depression_n_1392093.html?ref=mostpopular
This is nuts! I'm so glad that I've cut most of this crap out of my diet. I didn't actually take blood tests before I turned over my new leaf back in November, but I'm positive that my cholesterol and blood pressure numbers are way better than they were. I was eating a ton of butter and salt, and comparatively use very little now.
Check out the video at the Huff Post link below too!
A new study shows that junk food may have effects beyond expanding your waistline and upping your sodium levels -- it might also be sabotaging your mental health.A new study in the journal Public Health Nutrition shows that regularly eating commercial baked goods -- including doughnuts and croissants -- as well as fast food -- pizza, hamburgers and hot dogs -- is linked with an increased depression risk.
Researchers from the University of Las Palmas de Gran Canaria and the University of Granada found that the people who regularly eat these foods are also more likely to be more sedentary, smoke, eat other not-so-nutritious foods and work 45 or more hours a week.
"Although more studies are necessary, the intake of this type of food should be controlled because of its implications on both health (obesity, cardiovascular diseases) and mental well-being," study researcher Almudena Sánchez-Villegas said in a statement.
The study included 8,964 people who didn't have depression (and weren't taking any antidepressant drugs) at the start of the study. Their depression statuses and diets were tracked for an average of six months.
At the end of the study period, 493 people were depressed or were taking antidepressants. The researchers found that the ones who ate the most junk food were 51 percent more likely to develop depression, compared with people who ate the least of these foods.
The Mayo Clinic reported on a previous study also showing a similar link. That study showed that people whose diets are high in fried foods, processed meats, desserts and high-fat dairy had an increased risk of depression symptoms, compared with people who eat lots of fruits, veggies and fish.
The researchers of that study, from the University of California, San Diego, found that greater trans fats intake seemed to predict whether a person was more aggressive. The finding held true even after taking into account factors like sex, age and ethnicity.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/03/31/junk-food-depression_n_1392093.html?ref=mostpopular
Week 13 update: I broke my plateau!
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| Tasty eats at Hachi |
This week saw me staying close to home, with the exception of getting to the gym a few times, and an excursion out for dinner and a movie on Wednesday. We hit up Hachi at Red Rock for some pre-Hunger Games sushi, and appetizers, which were tasty, though a bit overpriced for my tastes. (Have I mentioned I absolutely live for a bargain, and knowing good places to score cheap eats is something I take pride in. Still, the atmoshere was fun, and the service was attentive but not overbearing.
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| Coconut ginger curry soup... OMG! |
After the movie, which was EPIC AWESOME, we decided to continue the Japanese theme and hit up Ichiza in China Town. The service was bad and we waited for a table forever. Still, their food is fun, with lots of variety, and tons of off-menu specialty items printed on cards which cover the walls. Many of them aren't even in English. We joked that the chef was in the back indulging in various substances to come up with some of the seriously off the wall creations. For instance, for desert, we ordered one of their house specialties which is simply called "Honey butter." Which was basicly half a loaf of freshly baked bread which had been partially hollowed out, drizzled with honey and butter, and then topped with a big gob of ice cream. It was... an experience. Good, but I don't feel the need for an encore. (and before you think that I completely blew out my diet on this thing, between three of us, we ate maybe half of it.
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| "Honey Butter" after we killed it. |
The wedding was fun, and I'm proud of myself for staying away from the buffet table all together. It was a dry wedding, so not having cocktails to contend with also made staying on track easy.
When it comes down to it, I actually went over my points for the week, which I Never do, but it was only by 15 points (which is maybe 400-600 calories) and I still lost 2.5 lbs. All's well that ends well, right?
So once again, goals for this week are to actually stay within my points, go to the gym if my feet continue to cooperate, and hopefully continue the downward trend on the scale. See ya next time!
Weeks down: 13
Starting weight: 271.5 lbs
Current weight: 263.5 lbs
This week's loss 2.5 lbs
2012 weight loss: 8 lb
2012 goal: 219.5 lbs
Starting BMI 40.00
Started WW on 11/28, @ 281.5 lbs
Total loss: 18 lbs
Monday, March 26, 2012
Week 12: Foot Doc and WTF?
I had a serious WTF moment when I stepped on the scale this week and saw that I'd gained ANOTHER half pound. Okay. So I know half a pound isn't a huge deal, but when I can honestly say that I'm on program, it really pisses me off to see a gain on the scale. I'd be lying if I said that it didn't ruin my day, but I really kind of allowed it to. I've got to keep faith that if I keep doing things right, that things will start moving in the right direction again, and for what it's worth, I am staying on track. I'm tracking everything, and I'm absolutely on target with the diet portion of my program. I can only think that my lack of progress is due to the fact that I haven't been getting any cardio. Something I hope to change very soon.
In other news, I went to the podiatrist on Wednesday, finally, and after an exam and x-rays, the doc announced that I have "everything wrong with my feet that everyone has wrong with their feet: metatarsalgia, plantar fasciitis, neuroma, you just have all of it happening in BOTH feet."
Yay. Lucky me.
I've also got one foot that's a little longer than the other which is making me walk a little bit funny, and putting strain on a ligament or tendon or something on the outside of my left foot, which explains the pain there.
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| Gimpy feet! |
The bad news is that I'm already out of pocket $180 bucks for a pile of foam and medical tape, and it turns out I have a $500 deductable on my health insurance when I see a specialist. Serious suckage. Don't get me wrong... I'm VERY glad I have insurance, but I was really hoping to save my pennies for a trip out to NYC and Boston this summer, and my little adventures in podiatry may put those plans on hold.
Sad Panda.
C'est la vie, right?
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| Yes, I posted a foot pic. Deal with it! LOL! |
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| My pretties, all ready for planting. After all of that, today I'm so sore I can hardly move! Oof! |
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| My bratty Daisy cat only had eyes for the catnip. Typical! |
No formal recipes this week, but I did discover a surprisingly tasty and easy meal: diced jalapeno, onion, and a couple of handfuls of frozen sweet corn, all sauteed with a little non stick spray, which I then tossed with a serving of egg noodles, 1/3 cup of alfredo sauce, and a little cilantro. Easy peasy, and so tasty I made it for lunch two days in a row. (It runs about 12 ww points, but 4 of that was from the corn.)
My goal this week is to get to the gym at least three days and try to get my momentum back. I'm really ready to see a lower number on the scale!
Weeks down: 12
Weeks to go: 40Starting weight: 271.5 lbs
Current weight: 266 lbs
This week's GAIN .5 lbs
2012 weight loss: 5.5 lb
2012 goal: 219.5 lbs
Starting BMI 40.00
Started WW on 11/28, @ 281.5 lbs
Total loss: 14.5 lbs
Monday, March 19, 2012
Week 11 review, and Roasted tomatillo and chipotle chili!
Well, I gained half a pound this week. I'm not sure why, but I'm not stressing about it. We're talking 8oz here, which is not much to speak of. I'm not really surprised to see a bit of fluctuation when it comes down to it though: it happens. I lost a total of 5lbs in the previous two weeks. I've stayed on track with my diet, and I'm getting excercise in where I can, so hopefully it will average out in the end if I just keep doing what I should be doing.
I go to see the podiatrist about my feet on Wednesday, so hopefully that will give me some answers, and she can give me some guidance as to what sorts of excercise I can safely do.
I'm trying to get back into the habit of cooking a new recipe each week. This week we hit a cold snap here in Vegas, and I decided to try my hand at a Roasted tomatillo and chipotle chile. I cobbled it together from a few different recipes I found. I'm considering it a work in progress, but it came out pretty tasty! I think next time I may add some roasted corn just before serving.
I'm trying to get back into the habit of cooking a new recipe each week. This week we hit a cold snap here in Vegas, and I decided to try my hand at a Roasted tomatillo and chipotle chile. I cobbled it together from a few different recipes I found. I'm considering it a work in progress, but it came out pretty tasty! I think next time I may add some roasted corn just before serving.
| 2 Tbsp olive oil | ||||
| 1 lb Tomatillos, Roasted, skinned, and pureed | ||||
| 1 orange bell pepper, roasted and skinned | ||||
| 2 green bell peppers, roasted and skinned 1 yellow bell pepper, roasted and skinned 5 medium Anaheim chiles, roasted and skinned | ||||
| 2 medium white onions, chopped (save some for garnish) | ||||
| 6 cloves garlic, diced 1 Can kidney beans, drained and rinsed 2 cans Cannellini beans (white kidney) drained and rinsed 2 cans diced tomatos 1 small can (about 5 oz) chipotle peppers in adobo sauce 1 small can tomato sauce 1 small can veggie broth Start by peeling the papery wrapper from your tomatillos, and rinse them well under warm water to remove the sticky residue. Roast your chiles, tomatillos, and pepppers under a broiler until the skins are blacked, turning as needed to cook evenly (about 10-15 minutes.) Once cooked, place in a bowl and cover with plastic wrap for 10 mnutes or more. (This traps the steam and makes them easier to peel.) Peel skins and remove seeds (for less heat) and dice. Set aside. Sautee onions and garlic in olive oil in a large pot for aprox. 5 minutes. Puree tomatillos, chipotles in adobo, and 1 cup hot water, then add to onions and garlic, crushed tomatos, 1 can veggie broth, and tomato sauce.. Simmer for a few minutes to integrate, then add roasted peppers and chiles. Add rinsed beans, cumin, salt, pepper, chili powder, oregano, basil, sage, and (aprox 4 tbsp) balsamic vinegar to taste. Simmer at least 45 minutes or longer. Add water or simmer down to your desired thickness. Garnish with chopped onions, garlic, cilantro, low fat cheese, and sour cream as desided. Lean ground beef, turkey, or pork may be added or cooked separately for your omnivores, but be sure to adjust the point value. Makes aprox. 8 two cup servings 6 points per serving | ||||
| As with all of my recipes, if you have ideas for how to make them better, or if you try it, let me know what you think! See you next week! | ||||
Weeks down: 11
Weeks to go: 41
Starting weight: 271.5 lbs
Current weight: 265.5 lbs
This week's GAIN .5 lbs
2012 weight loss: 6 lb
2012 goal: 219.5 lbs
Starting BMI 40.00
Current BMI 39.2
Started WW on 11/28, @ 281.5 lbs
Total loss: 16 lbs
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Week 10: Breaking Even
Good news! Somehow, I lost another three pounds this week! That means I've managed to lose the last of the 5 lbs I gained on vacation. It felt good to see that number on the scale!
I say that I don't know how I lost three pounds in a week, because I didn't even attempt to go to the gym this week, but I stayed on target with my WW tracking. I actually came in under my points this week, and way under my daily points yesterday, due to what I would like to say was due to a stomach bug, but in reality was really a nasty hangover. Oops.
Bad mermaid.
Note to self: when attending a dinner party, eating sparsely throughout the day, and like a bird at said dinner party does not mean it's a good idea to drink the rest of your daily points and then some. I thought if I went easy on the food and saved my points for drinks that I'd be good, but I got sick. Horribly horribly sick. Yes, I mixed. Yes, I failed to drink water. Yes, I failed to eat. Yes, I probably had a bottle of red all to myself throughout the course of the evening. Yes, I ate the vodka soaked gummy bears and behaved scandalously. (No, I won't be thrilling you with the details!) And, yes, I know better... but I did it anyway, and I paid for it. Believe me, I paid for it with one of the worst hangovers I've ever had. We've all been there, right?
I'm not trying to visit that awful place anytime again soon, trust me. ***TMI ALERT*** If you've ever considered getting lap-band, let me tell you something they will never mention in a seminar. Once you get it, even if you have it unfilled like me, you will never again be able to throw up like a normal person. It just doesn't work. It's pretty much a one way street. When you're sick and your body says it's time to get rid of something, it's going to keep trying to get rid of it whether you're able to bring up anything or not. It's really really difficult to get it all out of your system. You will be very, very sore for days. And you will have horrible hiccups because you've irritated the tissues in the area. Hiccups with a headache and nausea absolutely suck. I still only feel like I'm at about 85% today (Monday) and the craziness went down on Saturday night. ***This concludes the TMI portion of this week's blog post. You're welcome.***
As for the rest of the week, I actually spent most of it actually at the office. I get to work from home most of the time, but the fan went out in my laptop and I had to commute while it was being repaired. (I know, poor baby!) That meant getting up an hour and a half earlier than normal every day, packing a lunch, and staying on program with all the usual free goodies around. I'm proud to say that I was able to enjoy the goodies in moderation (one of my company's partners delivered a stack of pizzas for the office on Wednesday, another delivered chocolate chip cookies on Thursday, and a third delivered a huge bowl of chocolate candies that I had to walk past every time I left my desk.)
I also went out to sushi with a good friend that I hadn't seen in almost four years on Thursday. We had a fantastic time catching up and feasting on all sorts of wonderful little fishies.
I'm sure I've said it before, but one of the things about Weight Watchers that really works for me is that I can budget my points to allow myself indulgences like going out for sushi, and I still know where I stand. Any time I tried to diet on my own, or do more restrictive programs, sushi would have felt like an enormous cheat, but not on WW. I was tightfisted with my points throughout the week so that I could do sushi on Thursday, and my friend's epic and notorious dinner party on Saturday. I've done really well at staying within my points, but if I do have a day where I fall off track, it's easy to pick it up again anew the next day and start fresh.
This week I plan to stick to my guns, stay on target, and try to get in more activity even if I'm not doing it at the gym. I'm very happy that I ditched the vacay weight, but I'm also behind on my goal for the year at this point. I'd hoped to lose at least one pound a week, and as of now, I'm down 6.5 lbs for the year, and we're ten weeks in. I've got some catching up to do! Hopefully by this time next week I'll have more good news to report.
I say that I don't know how I lost three pounds in a week, because I didn't even attempt to go to the gym this week, but I stayed on target with my WW tracking. I actually came in under my points this week, and way under my daily points yesterday, due to what I would like to say was due to a stomach bug, but in reality was really a nasty hangover. Oops.
Bad mermaid.
Note to self: when attending a dinner party, eating sparsely throughout the day, and like a bird at said dinner party does not mean it's a good idea to drink the rest of your daily points and then some. I thought if I went easy on the food and saved my points for drinks that I'd be good, but I got sick. Horribly horribly sick. Yes, I mixed. Yes, I failed to drink water. Yes, I failed to eat. Yes, I probably had a bottle of red all to myself throughout the course of the evening. Yes, I ate the vodka soaked gummy bears and behaved scandalously. (No, I won't be thrilling you with the details!) And, yes, I know better... but I did it anyway, and I paid for it. Believe me, I paid for it with one of the worst hangovers I've ever had. We've all been there, right?
I'm not trying to visit that awful place anytime again soon, trust me. ***TMI ALERT*** If you've ever considered getting lap-band, let me tell you something they will never mention in a seminar. Once you get it, even if you have it unfilled like me, you will never again be able to throw up like a normal person. It just doesn't work. It's pretty much a one way street. When you're sick and your body says it's time to get rid of something, it's going to keep trying to get rid of it whether you're able to bring up anything or not. It's really really difficult to get it all out of your system. You will be very, very sore for days. And you will have horrible hiccups because you've irritated the tissues in the area. Hiccups with a headache and nausea absolutely suck. I still only feel like I'm at about 85% today (Monday) and the craziness went down on Saturday night. ***This concludes the TMI portion of this week's blog post. You're welcome.***
As for the rest of the week, I actually spent most of it actually at the office. I get to work from home most of the time, but the fan went out in my laptop and I had to commute while it was being repaired. (I know, poor baby!) That meant getting up an hour and a half earlier than normal every day, packing a lunch, and staying on program with all the usual free goodies around. I'm proud to say that I was able to enjoy the goodies in moderation (one of my company's partners delivered a stack of pizzas for the office on Wednesday, another delivered chocolate chip cookies on Thursday, and a third delivered a huge bowl of chocolate candies that I had to walk past every time I left my desk.)
I also went out to sushi with a good friend that I hadn't seen in almost four years on Thursday. We had a fantastic time catching up and feasting on all sorts of wonderful little fishies.
I'm sure I've said it before, but one of the things about Weight Watchers that really works for me is that I can budget my points to allow myself indulgences like going out for sushi, and I still know where I stand. Any time I tried to diet on my own, or do more restrictive programs, sushi would have felt like an enormous cheat, but not on WW. I was tightfisted with my points throughout the week so that I could do sushi on Thursday, and my friend's epic and notorious dinner party on Saturday. I've done really well at staying within my points, but if I do have a day where I fall off track, it's easy to pick it up again anew the next day and start fresh.
This week I plan to stick to my guns, stay on target, and try to get in more activity even if I'm not doing it at the gym. I'm very happy that I ditched the vacay weight, but I'm also behind on my goal for the year at this point. I'd hoped to lose at least one pound a week, and as of now, I'm down 6.5 lbs for the year, and we're ten weeks in. I've got some catching up to do! Hopefully by this time next week I'll have more good news to report.
Weeks down: 10
Weeks to go: 42
Starting weight: 271.5 lbs
Current weight: 265 lbs
This week's loss 3 lbs
2012 weight loss: 6.5 lb
2012 goal: 219.5 lbs
Starting BMI 40.00
Current BMI 39.1
Started WW on 11/28, @ 281.5 lbs
Total loss: 16.5 lbs
Monday, March 5, 2012
Week 9: Unofficially Gimpy
Well kids, I officially screwed up my feet. Or at least as officially as my primary care doc can say. I've got a referral to see a podiatrist at the end of the month. After listening to my symptoms, and administering a few pokes, prods, and not-so-gentle squeezes my doc pronounced her verdict: I've probably got neuromas growing on both feet, metatarsalgia, and possibly some plantar fasciitis going on as well. The one that weirds me out is the neuroma, which is basicly a benign tumor or growth on the nerve. It's just creepy. She did a simple test: squeezing the sides of my feet together, right across the widest part of the foot, just below the toes, and YEOWCH! On both feet. No bueno, my friends.
I likely ended up in this pickle due to the following factors: I'm about 100 lbs overweight, (duh), overuse (i.e. going from zero to gym bunny in a short period of time,) and wearing improper shoes. This means no heels in my wardrobe for the foreseeable future, as they will only exacerbate the problem. Most sandals are also a bad idea, unless they have good arch supports. I'm going to go see a podiatrist just to make sure what I'm dealing with, but my doc tells me the treatment is pretty similar whatever the exact problem turns out to be: I've got a prescription for anti-inflammatories which will hopefully help the pain and swelling to chill out. I need shoes that provide good shock absorbtion, and have a decent amount of padding across the pad of the foot. I need to wear good shoes with proper arch support all the time. Even in the house. Apparently, going barefoot on hard surfaces is a bad thing, and my whole house is tile.
So... that means shoe shopping, right? Yay!!!
"Shoes.... OMG! Shoes..."
Not so much. Have you seen orthotic shoes? Most of them are not cute, and they come with a higher price tag than I'm used to seeing on my shoes. I picked up a pair of Merril sandals for $35, which was half off the regular price, but still pretty pricy for what amounts to a pair of glorified flip flops. I think for the time being, I'll stick to my tennis shoes and Teva sandals until I see what the podiatrist recommends.
My doctor gave me the go-ahead to go back to the gym, as long as I stay away from weight bearing excercise. I'm good to go with the eliptical and stationary or recumbant bike, but I'm forbidden to set foot on the treadmill. Yay...? So, off I went that very night, determined to get cracking and get the vacay weight off. I did 20 minutes on the eliptical, and 25 on the recumbant bike. Great workout! I got this! No problem... until I stepped off the bike and had to limp my way out of the gym. *sigh* I think I'm going to have to give it more time. I really don't want to slack off, but I'm also tired of being in pain. Meh!
Now for the good news: I lost two pounds this week! That's even with a happy hour cocktail party on Tuesday, a happy hour work function Wednesday, and dinner out on Friday to celebrate my roommate's birthday. I BARELY stayed within my points for the week, but I did it. Down to the last activity point!
And I lost two pounds. Maybe I should eat all of my points more often...? Nah!
Just three more pounds to go to get back to my pre-vacay weight. I know it's a lot to expect to do it in just one week, but I'd really like to get back to 265 by my next weight in. That will mean that the month of February 7- March 7 was a wash, but then I can get on with my progress, instead of just making up lost ground.
My doctor gave me the go-ahead to go back to the gym, as long as I stay away from weight bearing excercise. I'm good to go with the eliptical and stationary or recumbant bike, but I'm forbidden to set foot on the treadmill. Yay...? So, off I went that very night, determined to get cracking and get the vacay weight off. I did 20 minutes on the eliptical, and 25 on the recumbant bike. Great workout! I got this! No problem... until I stepped off the bike and had to limp my way out of the gym. *sigh* I think I'm going to have to give it more time. I really don't want to slack off, but I'm also tired of being in pain. Meh!
Now for the good news: I lost two pounds this week! That's even with a happy hour cocktail party on Tuesday, a happy hour work function Wednesday, and dinner out on Friday to celebrate my roommate's birthday. I BARELY stayed within my points for the week, but I did it. Down to the last activity point!
And I lost two pounds. Maybe I should eat all of my points more often...? Nah!
Just three more pounds to go to get back to my pre-vacay weight. I know it's a lot to expect to do it in just one week, but I'd really like to get back to 265 by my next weight in. That will mean that the month of February 7- March 7 was a wash, but then I can get on with my progress, instead of just making up lost ground.
Weeks down: 9
Weeks to go: 43
Starting weight: 271.5 lbs
Current weight: 268 lbs
This week's loss 2 lbs
2012 weight loss: 3.5 lb
2012 goal: 219.5 lbs
Starting BMI 40.00
Current BMI 39.6
Started WW on 11/28, @ 281.5 lbs
Total loss: 13.5 lbs
Monday, February 27, 2012
Week 8: Vacation's Over! Back on the Wagon!
This week was boring! LOL! Okay, maybe not boring, but certainly sedate after last week. I'm back on track with my diet, and stayed on program all week. Still dealing with the consequences of my indulgences though. As of Thursday's weigh in, I was up another three pounds, which means I gained a total of 5 lbs while I was on vacation. It's hard to believe that it took me three weeks to lose three pounds, and only ten days to gain 5. It just doesn't seem fair! As friends have reminded me though, alcohol is the diet killer, and while I didn't go on any crazy benders, there were a quite a few happy hour evenings, combined with tasty eats. Oh well. For better of for worse, it's done and it's time for me to get to work taking it back off.
My feet are still bothering me, and I've decided to stay away from doing any sort of gym activity that involves me putting pressure on my feet until I've been to the doctor this coming Monday. This week was all about getting back on track, so I wanted to at least TRY to get some exercise. I went to the gym one night this evening and gave the arm bike a try. The arm bike is just what it sounds like. You sit down as you would at a recumbant bike, but instead of pedals for your feet, you have pedals with hand grips. It moves the muscles in your arms and shoulders and gets your blood moving. From what I understand, it's primarily used by people who can't do excercises which involve the larger muscles of the legs (which burn WAY more calories, btw...) whether due to foot or leg injuries, or because of excessive weight. If you've ever watched a TV show about super morbidly obese people who are trying to lose weight, they usually put them on arm bikes because it's one of the only cardio excercises they can do, because they're often too heavy to walk on a treadmill or use other cardio machines like stationary bikes and elipticals. It's also a good machine to use for five minutes or so to get warmed up before lifting weights.
I wanted the arm bike to work out, but It's just not my thing. After just one 40 minute workout, my wrists and hands were sore, and I'm not looking to mess them up too. Plus, it really doesn't burn very many calories. I decided to just take it easy until I can get to the doc, and get my activity points doing housework and gardening. I spent a large chunk of my weekend working on tidying up the garden. I've got my two largest beds cleaned out, pulled out all of the dead and dying annual vegetation like giant zinnias, moonflower vines, and marigolds, plus a small mountain of weeds. It was quite the workout, as my legs, back, and arms were quick to remind me come Monday morning.
This time next week I hope to have some answers from the doc, a game plan, and hopefully a weight loss to report!
Weeks down: 8
Weeks to go: 44
Starting weight: 271.5 lbs
Current weight: 270 lbs
This week's GAIN: 3 lbs
2012 weight loss: 1.5 lb
2012 goal: 219.5 lbs
Starting BMI 40.00
Current BMI 39.4
Started WW on 11/28, @ 281.5 lbs
Total loss: 14.5 lbs
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Weekly Check in: Week 7 and Staycation
This week was not a good week in terms of progress towards my weight loss goals. I took the week off work and planned to make a little staycation out of it for myself. Coming on the heels of the previous indulgent weekend, instead of climbing back on the wagon like a good monkey, I thumbed my nose at the caravan and cavorted my merry way into a 2 lb gain. I went out almost every day this week, including an evening out with my ladies on Valentine's Day, a catered open bar employee appreciation event for work, plus several happy hour evenings out. (Including my first visit to a British themed gastropub!) Then, over the weekend, I went out of town to a convention in San Jose, CA and hung out with some good friends that I haven't seen in over a year.
I can honestly say that I only remember cooking one real meal all week. The rest was meals out, or fast food. I'll tell you straight up that I was a bad little monkey, and I didn't even try to track my intake this week. I relaxed, spent time with friends, stayed out til all hours, and slept in every day. I didn't go to the gym once, but that was only partially due to laziness. The main reason I didn't go was the growing realization that I've done something really bad to my feet. I took the week off from the gym to see if the break would help my foot problems, but little luck there.
The pain has been getting steadily worse over the past few weeks, and by Saturday evening there was absolutely no doubt in my mind that I'd be seeing a doctor about it. I've had pain in my arches and heels on both feet. On the right foot, I'm getting charlie horses across the pad of my foot when I flex my toes, and once in a while I get a spasm down the length of the arch that feels like my foot is splitting open. In the left foot, I've got pain and visible swelling on the top of the foot, just in front of the ankle. The pain is the worst in the morning when I first step out of bed. Based on my symptoms, it sounds like possible plantar fasciitis in both feet, or even a stress fracture in the left foot. I'm no doctor, but I have an appointment on the 27th. In the meantime, I plan to stay off my feet as much as possible, keep the left foot braced (when I immobilize my ankle, I get less strain on the top of the foot) and stay away from heels and shoes without arch support. I'm also stretching and massaging, but it's not getting much better. I spent most of Sunday walking around the convention barefoot because the sneakers I brought gave me blisters, and the wedge sandals were making the cramps worse. No one seemed to notice or care about my bare feet, but I'm sure it didn't help my feet any.
I flew home today, ending the great staycation adventure, with all of it's debauchery and multitude of culinary and alcoholic indulgences. I expect I may be dealing with some additional weigh in consequences, as my most recent weigh in only brought me through Thursday. As of tomorrow, I'm back on the wagon.
Weeks down: 7
Weeks to go: 45
Starting weight: 271.5 lbs
Current weight: 267 lbs
This week's GAIN: 2 lbs
2012 weight loss: 4.5 lb
2012 goal: 219.5 lbs
Starting BMI 40.00
Current BMI 39.4
Started WW on 11/28, @ 281.5 lbs
Total loss: 14.5 lbs
Monday, February 13, 2012
Weekly Check in: Week 6
I lost one more pound this week, so I must be doing something right! Still at it at the gym, and staying on point with my food tracking, during the week that is. I had a really big weekend with friends who came to town from the East Coast to celebrate my friend Amanda's Dirty Thirty. I tried not to go overboard, but honestly, I didn't even try to track my points this weekend. There were food and cocktails a-plenty and while I was conscious about what I was eating, I fully enjoyed myself! I saved all of my weekly points, and stashed away my activity points in preparation for the weekend... something told me I was going to need them!
We're talking dinner out on Friday night at the Grand Lux Cafe at Palazzo (Their tuna tartare salad is killer!) followed by red velvet birthday cake from Nothing Bundt Cakes. After that we headed out to Frankie's Tiki Room which is always a dimly lit scene of scandalous, rum fueled unrepentant debauchery! I only had two tiki drinks... but then there was a late night snack at Herbs and Rye with my friend Gemini after the East Coasters went back to their hotel to pass out. Herbs and Rye is a fun little spot with great food and drinks, and a number of tasty happy hour specials. It was also the scene of my introduction to the glories of carpaccio (or as I like to call it: cow sushi! Haha!) Shrimp cocktails, bacon topped mac and cheese... and no more drinks for the mermaid. Not until the next afternoon anyway... when I hit the champagne brunch at the Bellagio with my East Coasters. I kid you not when I say that our party of 7 held down the table for a full five hours. We hit up the buffet line for all manner of tasty things, but it was the champagne that really fueled the afternoon's shenanigans! We had such a great time laughing and telling stories. I kept expecting our servers to gently (or not so gently) suggest that we'd more than had our money's worth, but they just kept refilling our glasses!
Saturday evening was another night out on the always fabulous Las Vegas Strip, and another meal out at the PBR Rock Bar at Planet Hollywood. I tried to be good and ordered a turkey sandwich on whole weat, but it was no good, so I picked at a pile of fries instead. Probably the worst empty food decision of the weekend. At least the rest of the indulgences were worth it. I only had one beer plus a shot of Jack when a cute rugby player bought a round for all of us girls. All in all, not nearly as bad as it could have been.
Sunday was tame in the grand scheme of things, with dinner out at a Mexican restaurant just before dropping my friends off at the airport. Unfortunately, the food was not so good. My entree was anything but light... but I ate less than half of it. I more than made up for it with tortilla chips, I'm afraid... which was probably the tastiest part of the meal.
After the weekend's indulgences, I'm going to be happy if I even break even on my next weigh in. I weigh in on Thursdays, so this week's weigh in took place before the indulgences of the weekend. I've taken the upcoming week off work for a little staycation. I'd like to think that I'll be a good monkey, but we'll see what happens.
Weeks down: 6
Weeks to go: 46
Starting weight: 271.5 lbs
Current weight: 265 lbs
This week's loss: 1 lbs
2012 weight loss: 6.5 lb
2012 goal: 219.5 lbs
Starting BMI 40.00
Current BMI 39.1
Started WW on 11/28, @ 281.5 lbs
Total loss: 16.5 lbs
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Queen of the Night: In Memorium
I have a very distinct memory of the first time I heard Whitney Houston. I was five years old, living in Pocatello, Idaho where my mom and stepdad were college students. It was the music video for "The Greatest Love of All." What I remember is seeing this beautiful lady, singing this pretty song, and she was singing about me! I felt special. At the age of 5, most of the meaning of the song went over my head. I didn't understand the chorus, but I remember hearing these lyrics, and even then, they stuck with me:
"I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be...
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be...
...I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadow
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity..."
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity..."
When I was about 12 years old, "The Bodyguard" came out, and my mom bought the soundtrack on cassette tape. I'm surprised I didn't wear it out. I was a latchkey kid and usually spent a couple of hours home alone after school, doing my chores before my parents got home. I remember playing this album LOUD on the stereo in our living room so many times, belting along with Whitney while I did the dishes, and cleaned the house. I knew every note, and in my head, I sounded just like her.
I loved her music, and she was so pretty. So classy. Statuesque. Elegent. I idolized her just a little bit.
I remember so many mornings and afternoons riding the school bus, with all of us kids singing along to singles from "The Bodyguard" and "Waiting to Exhale." I remember listening to her Mariah Carey duet "When you Believe" with my best friend, talking about both Whitney and Mariah's voices, and discussing their vocals and technique. At 17, we were vocal majors at a performing arts magnet, thought we knew it all, and took such discussions very seriously.
She was a pervasive musical presence all throughout my childhood and teen years.
Watching her decline and spiral into addiction over the next decade was a sad thing. She lost it, and eventually her drug abuse trashed her voice. When she did try to make a comeback in 2009, it became clear that she just didn't have the goods the way she used to. I always hoped that somehow she would clean herself up, and show us the Whitney that I loved growing up. The Whitney who's powerhouse rendition of "The Star Spangled Banner" at the 1991 Suberbowl still gives me chills.
I've heard a lot of people say a lot of harsh things in the past day since the news of her death broke. "She squandered her God given talent." "One more dead drug addict." "She cared more about getting high than she did about being a mother" "One less crackhead in the world." "She might have been talented once, but she was washed up... who cares?"
I do.
Hearing these flip, harsh and hard hearted comments makes my chest hurt.
Yes, she made a lot of bad choices. She was a drug addict, and her addictions ruined her instrument and her ability to do what I believe she was on this earth to do. She was a train wreck and a hot mess. She went from being an icon of grace, beauty, and enormous talent to one more sad cautionary tale of the way that drug use and addiction can destroy a life like a cancer.
None of that takes away the fact that she was one of the greatest singers we've ever had.
As a singer, your voice is so much a part of your identity. It's like a limb. Losing the magical spark that sets you apart, that is so much a part of who you are and your self worth is absolutely devastating. It's paralyzing and terrifying. I can only imagine how Whitney must have felt to know that she had thrown away what was undoubtedly one of the best parts of her life. How she must have felt to be the butt of so many cruel jokes, and to know that on some level they were true. I'm sure the knowledge of how she'd screwed up and knowing what she'd lost contributed to the darkness inside of her.
I can have compassion for her without condoning her bad behaviour. Why is that so hard for people to understand?
I believe that a person's legacy is more than the sum of their worst parts. Her music inspired people and touched countless lives, including mine.
Today, my heart is broken for her, for her family and friends, and for the millions of people around the world who loved her music as I did.
Whitney, I will always love you.
Rest in peace.
Monday, February 6, 2012
Week 5 Check in
This week flew by before I knew it, and I'm late getting my update in! Oh noes! Not the end of the world actually, though I would like to get better about posting on time. I've been spending about three hours per post getting everything together, including the pics. It doesn't seem like it should take that long, but I'm picky about my writing. I like to entertain people, whether that's singing, crracking jokes, or writing this little blog. Hopefully, I'm doing my job reasonably well, and you keep coming back. I'll keep writing either way, but it's always nice to get a little feedback to know that somebody out there is following my posts. =)
I lost one more pound, (slow AGAIN, but progress) and I feel like I'm starting to get back into my routine. I did not do well at all on my sleep goal, however. Seems like I just couldn't get myself to bed at a reasonable hour, and when I did, the sleep I did manage to get was poor quality. Weird upsetting dreams and waking with headaches. Not so fun. I'm going to try to do better this week.
I got to the gym four days this week, and Friday night I got my best workout stats yet. It may not seem like much, but I'm pretty proud of it. When I first went back to the gym in December, this is what my stats looked like:
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| That's a 30 minute mile, and a low incline. |
After two months, and a hard push Friday night to see what I could do, I did this:
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| That's almost a 20 minute mile, and I climed 4x as many feet. |
I think now that I've gotten my cardiovascular fitness up a few notches I'll start incorporating the eliptical crosstrainer. I've read that if you do the same workout all the time, your weight loss progress can slow because your muscles get too used to the activity. So, this week I've made a point to up my intensity on both the speed and the incline. I'm going to shoot for at least one day a week on the eliptical, even if it's not the full hour I do on the treadmill. I'm not sure I'm ready for that yet!
Eventually I'll need to start adding some weights, but to be honest... I hate weight training. I know it's good for me, helps create more lean muscle mass, helps boost your metabolism, blah blah blah... but I hate it. No two ways about it. Part of that is that I'm a little bit intimidated by the weight machines, but more than that, I just hate the activity. When I'm doing cardio, I can get in my zone, hit a stride and just GO. You can't do that with weights. Or at least I can't. It feels difficult and unnatural. So for now, I'm pretending that I don't know I should also be weight training. It can be our little secret... right?
Weeks down: 5
Weeks to go: 47
Starting weight: 271.5 lbs
Current weight: 266 lbs
This week's loss: 1 lbs
2012 weight loss: 5.5 lb
2012 goal: 219.5 lbs
Starting BMI 40.00
Current BMI 39.3
Started WW on 11/28, @ 281.5 lbs
Total loss: 15.5 lbs
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